Hello World,
One thing that working nights at the Post Office has given me is the ability (or rather the time) to consider what I’m doing, why I’m doing and other bits and pieces. Sounds pretty deep but really, it just got me questioning what I want to be and do with my life. Ultimately I want to be a film / tv director (would prefer film!!) but I’d settle at the least for an editorial position. Obviously I appreciate that everybody starts at the bottom and works their way up, but I really do have the drive and determination to do this and I know I can do it too 
“Directed by C S Z Waywell” kinda has a nice ring to it, don’t you think? 
lol.
As well as this, I’ve had time to consider who I am as an individual and I think I kinda worked it out Naturally there are elements of me I’d rather rip out and burn on a massive log fire but hell, we’ve all got sections like that and no one is perfect… right? But a few things that did crop up were “Do I actually like who I am?”, “Have I done myself justice these past few years with the choices I have made?” and “Am I being the best I can be?” Naturally, I couldn’t answer any of these because I just don’t know! I don’t think we’re ever supposed to truely know ourselves; we just have to play each day as it comes. We have our off days and I think they just add to your character . Me no know, but what I do know is I HAVE to do this. I have to work my hardest – I have to reach my goal. Sure, I’m already pleased with myself that I even made it this far as not 8 months ago I was adamant I would never come, but now I’m here, I HAVE to get a 1st honours 
. Impossible…? Me thinks not!
Anyways, I think I’ve written enough gibberish for the time being – this is mostly for me to look back on and see how I’ve grown / matured and I appreciate most people won’t even read it but heck, I think of this as my form of diary. Oh and for the record… cannot WAIT to see Avatar and I no doubt a review will follow once I’ve seen it lol.
Avatar the Movie
Peace,
Chris
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